I’ve had a really bad year, couple of them really, and Christmas is really dragging me down this year, even more than most. The company I worked for last year went out of business. My ex-girlfriend was living with me, she didn’t have a job either, and we were trying to get her son, and I needed health insurance, so I took a job I hate with a long commute so we’d have money. Then I found out she was taking money out of my bank account to buy drugs while I was at work. Now I’m alone and stuck at this horrible job I have to drive an hour to every morning because I have to pay the bills she was running up and I have a pre-existing condition so I have to keep insurance. I’m alone, I have no friends at work, it’s dark driving to work and dark driving home to my empty house. I’m drinking to much I know, but this year the holidays are hitting me hard. If I can make it until spring I’ll be okay, I always feel better, but that seems an eternity away right now.